So friday night we had a date..dinner out..a walk outside by the water.. then home to separate houses. Was Fun, no relationship talking just enjoying the time spent together.
Sat .. had a mutual volunteer event we went separately, friends invited us over for a coctail on their porch after with some mutual friends.it was a gorgeous nite out.. H relayed a funny memory of us all at a party previously and he laughed quite hard at recalling the memory, well we all lughed but for me it was so nice to see him really laugh relaxed and enjoying himself again. I guess its been a while. We were there maybe two hours then home to seperate houses.
Tonight we went to a fair. Ate some delicious fattening fair food, watched some horse pulling , had some good conversation and fun. I actually asked him out tonight so I sent a txt after he dropped me off saying thank you for going out with me with a smiley face and he replied with a " thank you too ~ it was fun."
All in all I have no complaints. I get giddy and nervous getting ready for a date or if I know im going to be seeing him. I feel like a teenager again. I wondered today if he was feeling any of that or if its just the same ole for him? Not that it matters but it would be nice to think maybe its exciting for him too.
Again im not complaining I would take this situation of mine over many a situation.. but I miss him. I miss not having him home right now with me. I am crying right now and feel like a baby .. I havent cried for weeks not sure what this is about.
Maybe just plain tired of it all.
Married 1991 D 32 GD 12 D 30 GD 3 S 29 M 58 S 57 1st bomb 2008 2nd bomb 4/2015 same person New bomb 09/24 I fear those big words which make us so unhappy.
