Here's a link to a thread that I created many years ago that might help you better understand MLC and depression: In Tandem--MLC and Depression

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2538981#Post2538981

Depression is the main ingredient of MLC.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.