It is what you want too, if you hope to get another chance. It is love, but at the same time it gives your M its best shot.

You'll have time to demonstrate the new, more considerate you. In the meantime, focus on how you are going to be the happier, more interesting you regardless of what she does. Again, good for you, good for her, good for your R.

It's tough. I tended to recognize intellectually what to do & not to do. Didn't always keep me from following that insight in the day-to-day. I know you've been told this repeatedly, but it will get easier. I'd add, then it will get harder, then easier, and so on. Overall, the harder wont be as hard and wont last as long, and the easier will be more easy (?) and last longer.

Expect some mistakes as you re-orient, but also that they are only a real problem if you keep making them. Again, easy to say, hard to remember when you've just f*cked up.


Me: 50 W:43
S6, S3
M: 12 yrs. T: 17
M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14
S 5 Feb '15
D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry")
DB Coach May '15
Wants proceed on D Aug '15
Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15