So a rough day yesterday. Just felt down all day, couldn't get the fact that I know she is talking and flirting with guys out of my head. I know that I shouldn't be focused on her, but it seems that I have become obsessive over this whole situation. I keep having these intrusive negative thoughts that just pop up. I am trying to work on my PMA but can't seem to be doing a great job.
I am still hung up on her, and what she is doing. I see her and she acts very happy and living life to the fullest. Tries to tell me how life is good and how I will eventually come to realize that this is for the best for us both. I know life is beautiful, but I can't get out of my depression over all of this. I am trying, everyday, day by day.
Yesterday, she and my S7 had an appointment with the dentist, she contacted me and asked me to cancel the appointment for S7 as he was going to the zoo. I asked her to please drop off the baby at my mother's house as she was coming in this direction, that set her off, saying that we didn't discuss it, and how she thought that I was going to over and pick him up. She gave me this whole thing about how she has not been able to eat due to the baby, but I am like, ok, what do you want me to do? I manage to eat just find when I am taking care of both of the children. Sorry just needed to get this out of my head, just too much there.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
