Zues, sorry to hear of the emotional exhaustion that comes from keeping ones chin up and soul elevated through hard times...we all know a similar pain. I just wanted to offer that love and support to you as you do me, when my dark clouds begin to cluster. Anway it is Father's Day here in NZ and Australia and I thought of all the amazing dads I read about on the boards here. You my friend were one. Take care, you are in my thoughts. Xxx JellyB