She's off on a girls' weekend with her friends. Ironically enough it's been precisely a year since her girls' weekend trip that preceded BD. 1st anniversary of BD is the 9th.
Even this temporary separation has given me some peace. We left on good terms yesterday, even after a rough morning....but soon after she left I could feel my drive and energy returning. Not sure what that means.
She had a big meltdown yesterday. She's starting to turn a lot of her anger on herself; She's starting to constantly talk about how she feels like a failure, how she ruined my life. I don't know how to read that...maybe she's starting to realize that much of this mess is of her own making.
She sent me a long text last night from her hotel...
"Hey you...I just wanted to say I'm so sorry for how I treated you today. as weird as this sounds, I think maybe it was some sort of breakdown/breakthrough. God I hope so at least Anyway, I truly love you and hope you can forgive me. I want so badly to be okay and for us to make it. Hope I haven't damaged us too much for us to keep working on us."
Sounds good, but I'm so on guard for Christmas turkey crumbs that I don't know what to think.
Ex Rzrback Me 43 Her 44 D11, D15 T21, M19 BD 9/9/2014 Piecing
Sometimes if you want to see a change for the better, you have to take things into your own hands - Clint Eastwood
