as_it_is - my adventure continues (part 4)

[Fogg]

Strange. I can't imagine forgetting & leaving something like that out, and I'm not as bashful about such things as my W always has been.

My W has done things like this months and months ago and you might not like the answer to why. She likely just doesn't think about it. She is so focused on her new life and how happy it is going to make her that you and things such as that don't cross her mind that often. She has more important things to think about and focus on(to her).

There is also something sad that she has a loving man who would give her all the pleasure, affection, and comfort, and she is not able to let herself take that risk.


Today is also a bit of a down day. I figured out that part of it is that when start relaxing and feeling like things are going well between us that she usually pours some salt in the wounds by wanting to move forward on the D. I think I was/am unconsciously experiencing anticipatory anxiety.

Its not what they want in life right now so why should they try to fill their needs with us. It could be they want something specific more so why would they have the cappuccino when they're going after the latte.

Expectations will get you, they creep up deep down when you don't even realize it. That's the difficult part of doing all of this with hope that things will work out by our actions. You can do everything right and DB perfectly and it mean nothing. The fact is while we have some influence on them coming back its still mostly on them. Compare it to filling a bucket with water. We have the eye dropper and they have a big gulp cup. What we do, no matter how well, will only have so much of an effect on the outcome.