as_it_is - my adventure continues (part 4)

[asitis]

OK, we've had fun, but I'm feeling a bit bad about continuing it the more I think about it. I know I instigated, and I had some venting to do & some serious questions. I also know that none of you know her, but it still feels like I'm crossing a boundary that I'd like to pull back on. There is also something sad that she has a loving man who would give her all the pleasure, affection, and comfort, and she is not able to let herself take that risk.

Thanks for the laughs though.

Today is also a bit of a down day. I figured out that part of it is that when start relaxing and feeling like things are going well between us that she usually pours some salt in the wounds by wanting to move forward on the D. I think I was/am unconsciously experiencing anticipatory anxiety.