So it is basically like indirect emailing? It's anytime you guys want to check it?
It sounds like what you are saying, you are writing all kinds of things some days about her and her effect on you. Isn't that sort of like pursuit? Letting her know that she is still jerking you around?
I thought you said you were not communicating much with her. It sounds like this is a lot of communication! Where is room for the message that it's over? If I were her, it seems like she gets to not only know that you're still holding the rope, but see in which hand. And have a very private view into a personal life that she has done nothing to earn.
TLEE, where is your self-respect here? She has done nothing but hurt you and string you along, and you're still showing your belly to her!
If a man rapes me, the last thing I'm going to do is send him naked pictures and hope he will want to come back and make it all better and make love next time. Do you see what I mean? This woman has emotionally tortured you.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
