running around like a chicken without a head

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So today I sent him some text messages and apparently he was with the ow who knew nothing about my abortion or us being together. So now he's pissed and hes stabbing me with such harsh words. I can't believe what I'm hearing. He wished he never married me, I fed up his life. He said other stuff as well. I'm not sure whether to believe him or not and how I should take his words but they did hurt. I have been keeping my distance and not calling getting a life which works for a while then he comes back and tries to make everything ok between us and then bam again when he's angry he uses me as a punching bag.
Once the papers are signed and filed I think detachment and going black will be a lot easier since he'll be moved out. I ask for your prayers and continued support.