Have i been making mistakes too long part 5

[tkdmme]

So, its labor day weekend which means the W, kids and I will be together at the house all weekend. This scares me. During the week I have no problem not talking to her about the R. On the weekend when we are together more its harder to keep my mouth shut. I have pulled it off for the past few weekends so I think I will be ok.

At what point is it ok to talk to her about the M? from what ive read I should keep quite about it until she brings it up. I hate this. Im leaving in November for a new project out of town and would love to have some sign from her that things will be ok between us before I go. I don't know if that will happen but I sure wish it would.

It is getting easier to DB. the more I practice the better I get at it. I haven't had a break down in a while. Im still emotional but ive been able to keep it a bay.

I am continuing to grow closer to my kids and they have really taken notice in the changes ive made so far. I think this makes the W angry. Back when we were still talking about our M she would always say "you cant just change now". Im not sure what that means. I guess she doesn't want me to change so that it is easier to justify her decision. In my mind, I have to change now. Im not willing to live another day as the man I was.