as_it_is - my adventure continues (part 4)

[asitis]

I agree, but I really don't think I'm sending that signal to her. Last night, for instance, I went out to meet my friend & her kids in part because W was out there & didn't know them. Didn't want any awkwardness between them. Once out, friend's D initiated the play. Nothing intentional. Besides, I felt a bit awkward like I had a closer R with my friend that her D was happy to see me even though I've only met her D once at a play date.

Same w/ the new FB friends. It is just that the thought pops into my head jeez, wonder what W is thinking about this my interacting so much w/ my young female friends. Focus is pulled away from my life by realizing W is watching me, not that I'm doing things to draw attention. If I wanted to do that, I'd be initiating friend requests to more of my classmates & others in my programs (I'm the old guy in the program, so I've erred on waiting for the young W to initiate on FB so to avoid the creepy old guy feelings). If anything, the humor is a response for my being a bit uncomfortable that I'm building a life apart from her, but she is still always there in the background observing.

But good reminder Beagley.