Eels...yes maybe I need to get zapped into thinking straight.
Got a good chuckle out of that V. Thank you!
My brain tells me to just move on, which I am. Don't really have a choice but to move forward. That is the way life goes.
Then my heart chimes in. Night time and early mornings are the worst for me. That is when I miss him the most. I miss having that other person there with me. Someone that cares. I know I need to figure out how to avoid those triggers. Maybe go for an early walk with the dog. Have breakfast at one of the local diners. Something...anything. It's tough.
Before with break-ups I always had my work to keep me busy, keep me focused, distract me. This time around I am really internalizing, reaching within myself to figure out what my contribution to this failed marriage is. As painful as this is and to me it's the worst break-up so far, I think I'm finally changing and coming into my own. No running away, jumping into another R, self-destructive behaviour. Learning to love myself and taking care of myself.
Just gotta make it over some logistical hurdles to get on with my life.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
