Betsey - I totally hear what you are saying - and I don't discount the notion that I could be emoting something I'm not aware of - but I've been pretty careful to not show any angst around my kids. I only cried once in the last year, and in truth you probably see my emotions at highest tilt on this board.
D7 is one of those kids who throws up in the morning if we are doing something she has been looking forward to that day (last year when we went to Disneyland, she threw up three times in the car on the way to the airport, and then was totally fine). If I look at it from her perspective, her dad very suddenly and abruptly disappeared from her daily life (we hadn't been fighting or anything) and a few months ago - we waved good-bye to my father, who was looking hale and hearty at 8 in the morning on our way to a swim meet, and by lunchtime he was gone forever. I think it's probably pretty normal for her to be anxious that someone else is going to disappear. A few weeks ago my mom was watching her after school and I got home 5 minutes later than I said I was going to. She was sitting outside waiting for me and quizzing my mom about what would happen if I got in a car accident and my airbag didn't deploy.
Anyway - on a different topic, STBX forwarded me an email from his lawyers today. Apparently there is still one form I need to file with the court and have formally "served". It has to do with property. Just to be clear, nothing in our property settlement is at issue, there has never been any argument over it. Once that document is filed, we are free to sign our final papers and be divorced. There was a bunch of stuff I needed to file (after my dad died I considered hiring a lawyer to do it for me - but I finally powered through what I thought was all of it on a quiet weekend). Anyway - the e-mail he forwarded was over 2 weeks old and it basically said if he was on speaking terms with me could he ask me to hurry along with it or, in the alternative, they could file a motion with the court and have a hearing that would allow them to proceed without it.
STBX's comment was simply "let me know what I should tell them - I really don't care".
And I find myself really ambivalent about what to do. I feel kind of like saying "It's your divorce. Frankly, filling out another form and having it served is a pain and since nothing is at issue, I don't care if the court just rules that we can move forward without it - unless that's going to cost you a lot of money. Let me know."
