Update after a long time

[shodan]

Thank you to everyone for their kind words. The past few weeks has been pretty crazy.

First, my wife started seeing a therapist and told me that she does not want a divorce. She said she hit rock bottom and realizes that she has been awful these past several months. Seeing me look into apartments made her realize the gravity of the situation. She told me that she knows that she needs to work hard to earn back my trust.

Second, my wife gave me the code to her phone. This is not full transparency clearly. When she gave it to me, I said thank you, kissed her on the cheek and walked away. I need to think about my next steps on this piece.

So, she says she wants to work on the M. I am staying the course, focusing on me. If this does work out, I know it will be because I truly dropped the rope and focused on me. For several months, I paid this lip service but did not man up and actually do it. Now, I have the confidence and strength to lead but I did not when this first happened.