On the Homefront, making steady progress. The house is starting to feel empty. Carpeting is gone and most of the furniture that I want gone has been taken away. Too hot to paint here this week, but hopefully next week we can get most of it painted. Until then my goal is to strip off the vinyl flooring. I did it many years ago when renovating the kitchen. It was not fun at all, but think that using a heating gun will make it easier to peel off the tiles this time.
My H. Very confused on what I should do. Since he has moved in with his mother he has withdrawn from me. He hardly ever calls and hasn't text me in days. Granted, his cellphone is on the fritz. He can't make phone calls, but he can still text. Plans are for me to come see him Sunday and Monday. Also made tentative plans for the weekend after and then again the week after that for our anniversary. We've had some heart to heart conversations in the past few weeks, although in hindsight I think I did most of the talking. He has said that he still wants to be married to me and he wants to eventually live together again. I have told him that I believe in our marriage and that I too want to be with him. Ok, so now the snag. We both agree that living together right now is not possible, logistically (as I'm trying to sell my house) and emotionally (we both need to heal). In the meantime we "date". The MC has told him that he should "woe" me as if we were truly just dating. He has not. It's almost like he knows I'll just be there so he doesn't even try. I feel like he really doesn't care what I do, where I go, how I feel. I still have the desire to connect with him, ask him about his work, about the weather, whatever. Have a conversation. It always feels strained now. I'm wondering if I should detach, but that to me feels like game playing. He withdraws and then I withdraw. Stalemate! But then if I call or text I'm persuing. What should I do? I do want to detach from reacting to his actions. How do I do that with someone that still tells me he loves me?
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
