Letting go, really hurts (Smothy 9)

[Pyrite]

Smoth,

i love you darling and I dont want to hurt you but it's time for a slap upside the head.

Every time you talk to him, every time you mind read, you are entertaining him. You have spent way too much time entertaining him.

Screw him. Your love, and your values WILL NOT disappear. You CAN still be open to R and detach.

There are great times ahead for you. I will bet my life that in 5 years bith you and I will be happy again and whether that is with ours Ss or not is irrelevant. Lets just get there hey.

Your values, your commitment, your attention, your tenacity, -- these are all fantastic qualities Smoth that ARE absolutely you. These are the qualities that have shone through in this darkest hour and that shows how real they are. You will be OK Smoth. I promise.I wish I could just hold you until this was over and stroke you hair reassuringly. You will be happy again Smothy. You will, I promise.

Imagine, going out for a cigarette (Smothy - tse tse tse ) and NOT thinking about your H. This wil lhappen. Whether it happens in 6 months or 6 years and whether you spend it angry or in love with yourself depends on you. Love yourself sweetheart. Love you first and everything else will come easy.