WAS or what (2)

[roist]

Sparker thank you for your viewpoint. Maybe I don't see the forest for the trees. I know I have posted good signs in the past but in general I feel thinks are not progressing and may really be slipping. I will try take a step back and reread my threads, to see what I nay be forgetting.

As for my deadline. This was never really a deadline, more so a landmark for which I aimed to hold myself together until. I don't want to put a deadline on our M, but I know eventually with no real improvement I will need to choose if I can keep living like this.

Maybe my W also had same deadline as
eher behaviour changed at that time.

I have questioned myself about my need to snoop. . It does take my focus off where I want it to be. But I suppose I do it to know what going on, and specifically what way I go forward. Finding something is not necessarily a deal breaker but it definetely changes the game. ww is not same as waw. I am thinking hard about my snooping and the benefits compared to to downside.