I have a few slow days this week so I went out and bought skates and then went rollerblading! I had so much fun. I haven't done that in a long time-since I was in my early twenties!

As I was rolling along it struck me that I liked myself more when I was in my twenties than I like who I have been these last few years. This made me pretty sad.

I've been knocked around these last few years and now that I've survived it all, I know I have to use these experiences to my advantage.

In my twenties I had such a vision of what my life would be like. So much of that came to fruition-my wonderful family chief among them. But at that young age you can't know the hits you're going to take. It was easy to be happier with myself then.

I want to get back to that happy at the core person. I know the experiences of these last few years can actually help me in this area. There's a wisdom/big picture mentality that I can have internally and that I can share with my kids.


Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13
BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself
BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room"
8/15: H back to MBR
10/15: H back in dorm room
1/18: H files, now divorced