I have been working everyday on my PMA, reminding myself how life is great, things to be grateful for, telling myself how I am forgiven for my past mistakes, how I am happy at the moment. Just faking it till I make it.
Today has been a difficult day. I just keep thinking that my W is there texting the OM everyday (she told me she would be backing off from that) because of something she said yesterday while we had a light and breezy conversation. I have been fighting this thought all day today, and the urge to ask any questions. I know this is silly because I honestly don't know if that is the case.
I miss my W, she is going out tonight with friends, told her this morning to enjoy her night. I am letting her continue her path as I can't control that. I am working on controlling my urges, impulses, and emotions; I really want to change this about myself. So a lot of work to do there.
Anywho, just wanted to let that out....Thank you for reading. God Bless
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
