Well, your sitch is definitely frustrating and requires great patience. You are in limbo in some areas. The self-imposed deadline that came and went is taking a mental toll on your hope for the M. You might want to ask yourself if this deadline is set in stone for you or is it wishful thinking?
However, if you read back through your posts, you would be able to see the progress you have made and the many positive, small effects they have had on your W's behavior and attitude. To me, this is encouraging for my own sitch.
Maybe you should spend a day stepping back from the continuing saga of your interactions with W and reflect on your own progress? It could be encouraging for you!
Also, question some of your motives, such as the one for snooping. Do you need to let go of a control issue? How can you take your eyes off of your M more and focus on feeling better and progressing even farther?
Just my take on things. Hope all goes well!
Me:46 H:42 T:7 M:5 MD(H SD):24 MS(H SS):19 MS(H SS):13 Separated on & off most of '15 WAH last left 8/15 WAH changed locks & Bank account of joint business 8/15
