Need advice for a WW who left Part 3

[dwh15]

Zeus, thanks for the link. I read up on your and Joe's situations. Wow. Unbelievable how someone who professed to love you until your last breath can almost overnight turn into your worst enemy. At this point, I wouldn't put anything past my WW. I really don't know her anymore; she has become so centered on her own needs that she puts her before anyone else, and will somehow justify it, as if it makes perfect sense and everyone else is a jerk for not seeing it that way. Her own family and formerly close friends all see it, and most have lost touch with her because of it.

I had hoped that, over the past few months, maybe she was starting to have some regrets about her choices. I think she does, but mostly in the way that her life has suffered. It's not because she feels bad for the pain she has caused me or anyone else; it's because of what SHE has lost in terms of money and time with the kids.

For now, my plan is to put a new lock on my bedroom door and put anything of value which I think she might take in there behind locked door when I'm gone. The kids start school next week, meaning nobody will be here during the day, so the outside door will be locked, with nobody to let her in, and she doesn't have a key to the recently changed lock on that door. Going forward, I plan to keep that outside door locked at all times and I guess I'm going to have to tell her no coming into the house w/o me around. I'm sad that it has to be this way, but I simply can't trust her, and I know she doesn't trust me. She assumes every move I make is to somehow make her suffer or make her look bad when it gets time to determine child custody.

Right now, I simply want to have a healthy co-parenting R with her, but even that seems difficult. The more time goes on, the more I detach and distance myself, and really do feel like I'm reaching a point where I don't honestly know if I could take her back. Can't believe this is my life right now.