Fear of the future is my enemy. I think if I believed I'd be ok with being alone in the future I could detach pretty easy from H. But I just don't see that right now. Being mid-50s with no husband and no children sounds very bleak to me. My head knows God has a good plan for me but my heart doesn't see it yet.

I'm trying to focus one day at a time right now and not look too far in the future. For a planner/fixer like me that is very hard.

Me53
H48
M 13
No children together
BDMay '15
PA June '15
H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing
Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming