Last night while looking up flight, accommodation etc for wedding trip W stated she thought we could not afford to both go. I Reacted badly as I took it as her not wanting to go. I was disappointed and immediately asked if it was just a question of money. She said yes and wanted to know why I asked that. Instead of screaming because that is how you acted in the trip we are just back from, I said I just was checking and left it at that.
I left the room and drank a STfU smoothy. When I came back I said that maybe she was right and money is tight. And it was looking mire expensive than we thought. Which is true.
Maybe she prefers not to go away with me or maybe it is really just about money. Idk, but to be fair she has helped me look up info, had organusd her folks to mind kids and spent a lot of time yesterday morning looking inti it on her own initiative.
I will decide now whether I go alone. It is nit straightforward but after I look more at logistics I'll decide what I want to do.
After my smoothly we had good light chat and even asked her to give me rock n roll lessons. This surprised her but she readily agreed. When asked what that had to do with wedding I said I had planned on asking wedding but even if we weren't going together I grew to like the idea and wanted to try. Note; she wanted to show me this 19 years ago but I never got into it.
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together
