wow, you are getting oral now--that's great. Look at it this way, at least you are getting contact. How did these rules come about??? Did he sit you down and list all of them for you and how can you remember all that?! what if you don't follow the rules??? My OM loved to hold my wrists, it was a power thing with him that he could control me. All these "rules" sound controlling. He does have something on his mind, and I know it's killing ya, but you have to step back a bit and be patient. I would rather have things move slow and work out then work out when I want them too(right away) and then not work out.
