Confused and Unsure

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Thank you SParker. I am sorry that you find yourself here, but this is a great place to get support and great advice. I will catch up on your sitch if you have began posting, if not, I would recommend you begin, it helps tremendously.

ILYNOT,

I know what you mean. I happen to be very critical of myself, so when I backpeddle I tend to then chastise myself for it. Something I am working on as well, forgiving myself.

I am now looking into why am I not in control of my emotions, of myself. It seems as if I want to control the situation or my W, knowing full well that those are things/people I do not have control over. I am quick to anger which is something I am not proud of, so I am going to continue to work on it. Any thoughts on anger management? I don't want to of course give my W any ammunition in case she decides to head to court, etc.

I have also started working hard on PMA, trying to reinforce nothing but positive thoughts, work on rewriting some of my negative ones, which tend to drive my anxiety.

On another note, I don't understand why my W would reach out to me giving me pointers on where to take a date once I have one. For instance, she had a team building event for work in a Thai restaurant, she had lots of fun. I reached out to her because she had an appointment for some stomach problems she has been having, when she responds she basically sends me a picture of her in the kitchen, tells me its lots of fun, and when and if I have a date to bring her there. I am thinking she is temp checking to get a response like, no you are the only woman I want to be with and I am not dating anyone.

If they don't care anymore, why bother....

Thank you for reading my post and your great advice.