In exactly one week my kids go back to school. I will not have them that day. I am having a really hard time with that reality. H said I can come see them after school--maybe he will agree to let me take them back to our new home for the afternoon. I just cannot believe I won't be there to see them off. The first day of school is so important with establishing the routine and tone for the year, and I just feel like it is all going to be so chaotic. I don't like the visitation schedule that is in place for the school year, it made sense for the summer but not for school. And it won't be until mid-September that we go to court again. It [censored] that he gets to see them every day because he is their teacher, but I need permission to see them on days that are not mine.
Also, OW had to contact me about some things coming up that my daughter was chosen for. Having to interact with her on a parent/teacher level knowing that she is the one who did all of this to my family is going to be really difficult. I am not looking forward to this year. I had to deal with her last year with S, but I was still home. She was still the one who had to lurk in the shadows on the outside. But now they have figured out a way to push me out. Civility won't come easy, but I will find a way. They will not win.
My heart feels heavy today.
Time to come up with a game plan for how I am going to make that first day of school a positive experience for me and the kids.
40s 2teens M14Y BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14 BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14 EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15 D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17
