HI Sotto! Health perspective NOT GOOD. Self-respect at this time I do not have much of that. In my head if he is still ML to me he is cheating on her so it must not be to serious. Its almost like revenge? I know sounds terrible but that is what it is. Usually I instigate it so it would be him saying no. I am sure if I did not instigate it it would not happen. Part of me feels like ML just prolongs the inevitable. He is going to do whatever he can to make his R with OW work so he does not look like the bad guy it is his repeated cycle. He ALWAYS dates whomever he cheats with. When he is done with them he usually comes back to me. Not fair and I am trying to break this cycle. If he comes back again I want to be able to set boundaries and have a healthy relationship. I do not know if he will come back this time or not I can NOT control that I can only work on me right now.
I am bouncing between should I leave or should I stay. I think if I leave he will have a rude awakening but I know he will immediatly bring OW around. If I stay at least he can see daily I am working and making changes.
