Asitis All Very good points. I like what you said and I totally agree. I still have a lot of work to do on me but like you said it hurts and the scared part of me starts to feel like I am drowning and try to hold onto anything I can.

I was on vacation last week and happened to meet a man from my area. He happens to be from my area and he slipped his number in my bag with a really sweet note. It reminded me of what it's like to be desired. So to answer your question the type of life that would make me happy would be to be with someone who wants to be with me. Who values me and cherishes me and sees me as the catch that I know I am.

You are right. My XH didn't want a wife. He wants that happy attractive woman and I want to be that woman again. I want to laugh and take life lightly. I am going to take your advice and breathe and relax and enjoy this period. I guess if we are meant to be we will be and I will have fun getting back to me.

Thanks I keep coming back on this forum because I just really need to hear this stuff sometimes to get me back to where my head needs to be.

This dating game though is so different than I remember it being. I text the guy last night and he never text me back. Apparently I should have waited for a few days before giving him my contact information. We will see what comes out of that but it felt so good to be liked and looked at as a woman. I'm feeling excited and it was so much easier to see my ex this morning.


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Kids 2
ILYBINILWY 08/05
Reconciled 05/06
S07/12
Moved back 03/13
Separated Again 06/24/13
Back Again (his choice) 02/14
Leaving again 03/23/14
DIVORCED 02/15