H is down. I have never, in all my years as his friend, known him to be depressed. But he seems to be in a bonafide depression these past few days. Says he's not upset with me, not thinking of anything wrong. He has been drinking Scotch every night, but not a lot. Just one or two. (For the past three days) He does have alcoholism in his family. I asked why he was drinking, and he said "because I like Scotch and I have it." OK...
He seemed so down this morning. Wouldn't get out of bed. All so uncharacteristic of him.
Do I distance while he is going through this? I acted "up" today, but it didn't seem to help. Usually, if I sing and dance around, it cheers him right up. So, I won't be doing that again. Don't do what doesn't work. Hmmmm.
He went to give me a hug goodbye, and I was heading downstairs to do laundry. He asked (in a very sad tone) "You don't want hugs? OK..." I said "No, I love morning hugs, they fill me up for the whole day." I let him hug me and he held onto me for some time. I could feel the sadness coming from him, like he was trying to soak up my good mood. Then, I looked for a split second in his eyes, and then presented my cheek as he was coming down to kiss me. He kissed my cheek and turned away to leave.
Oh, my PMA is so low. I have never seen my H down for more than a few hours. It is hurting me so much to see him go through this. Is he withdrawing from OW? If so, I could understand. I am just afraid he is going through something more physical.
