Quote: I will scan for 30 min today; I will scan for 1 hour today - and reward myself with a nice hot shower/bath, Latte at the mall, anything when I do it.
repeat.
VERY good suggestion, thanks. I have been trying to do 15 mins each day of scanning, but I dropped the ball a few weeks ago. Perhaps if I had a reward at the end, it would make it all worthwhile.
Is this my word(s) of the day? Chores suck! Chores suck! Chores suck! Chores suck! Chores suck!
Yeah, I feel better now, thanks.
Anyway, I'm an all or nothing gal, out to win the competition. I need to use my energy while I have it. I am doing plenty for myself, with the gym and lunch time bike rides. I did give up my weekly bubble bath, but I have been thinking of reconnecting with that "chore" soon.
Oh my goodness, rotzilla, I'm with you on the tired part! I've been getting up at 5:20am to exercise before work and by the time I get my kids to sleep at 8pm, I never have enough time to do the household stuff *and* get enough sleep. Both are suffering! I think I need a "mental health day" just to catch up.
When you wrote this: H offered the food to the children first, and I must have had a reaction (maybe I sighed?) I wasn't aware of. I noticed H being quiet and asked what was wrong. He said "I did something wrong and I'm just trying to figure out what it was." I said "Don't worry, I will fix it." Yet, he was kicking himself the rest of the time we were there eating lunch.
it made me catch my breath! This is so, so, so like something I would do to my dh. I don't ever put my dh down on purpose, but somehow I end up doing dumb things like this. (see the newest message in my thread about last weekend for proof) I loved what you said about repeating to yourself that you love him, but don't need him. Maybe if I start doing that it will help me too...
Yeah, mom, it's so true. I never purposefully put him down, but now that I have been reading and paying more attention, I can see how he would have felt demasculinated around me.
After all, it's hard to keep up with perfection.
I'm trying, but sometimes things like this slip by. It's just important to not do it again, now that I have identified an issue.
Hi Rottz, Bill and Mom2....just scanning through here...I gotta get some work done so don't have much time to post, but geez everybody has so much stuff going on in your sitchs.....I sure identify with what you said about being scared, Rottz.
It's such a fine line between being clingy and omnipresent and too available vs. too distant. I struggle with it every day....
