Thank you for reading on my thread and I'm really sorry you are in this situation...
I think S is not a good thing as a basic rule, and my DB coach also told me I don't have to tell him to leave right now, but it is hard. Sometimes I doubt myself if I'm not taking a firm enough stand. But then again, I still have opportunities to interact with him even a little, which I have to think is a good thing.
Being upbeat around him is all fake and forced. It's comforting to know if you say it'll be easier and more natural. When H is not around, it's even hard to get up. I feel like I just want to sleep. Any GALing does not give me any real joy right now, but I 'm just forcing myself, hoping it will sometime...
I started reading "solo partner" recommended here. I always knew I was a pursuer, but the description for both pursuer and distancer is so US. It is so me and H. I need to stop pursuing, and now it's fake, but I'm hoping to master it. I know it's going to be very difficult considering I have always been this way, not just with H, but I have no choice right now...
