My heart hurts less and less but the past is still confusing to me. Still trying to sort out what is for me to own and what was pure gaslighting and manipulation on top of the physical intimidation.
My friend sent me this:
Rehearsing your troubles results in experiencing them many tiems, whereas you are meant to go thru them only when they actually occur. Do not multiply your suffering this way!Come to me and relax in my peace. (Jesus)
It's hard not to rehearse that night and his following actions and tie in back to something I should have seen or known
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
