WAS or what (2)

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Chatted with IC today. She believes I have made great progress and have the cards in my deck to be happy. She says I can have no regrets if it does not work out and she see's me as being a good catch for someone else.

I don't like how she speaks as if it is done, but she made some interesting points. She believes that if we split, I will move on quickly and not look back. She thinks that maybe W knows that and that is why she has not dropped the bomb (literally said W not sure wants to lose me). This is mindteading but she has a lot of experience. Also said that she is certain Will regret losing me, though possibly too late.

She urged me to talk to W. Strongly urged. Says I should ask to understand how she can behave as if doesn't want to be withmeandpkan future stuff etc together.

She empathised that what I am going through must be hell. She says it can tgo on indefinitely as it is unhealthy. Gave me advice on not putting everything on me.

I said I felt recently like how I did when I was depressed, except I am looking for a solution instead of being suicidaire. She said this shows that it is not from me. I am over my depression and am working on me/us. I cannot fix her part.

I think that if I had not beenadament at the beginning that needed her to support my efforts to save M, she would have said that I havedobe all I can. Mind reading again but....

Anyway I'll be back with my action plan/goals