Where do I go from here? pt. 2

[beckyb]

Beagley,

I actually stay very busy with friends, exercise and future plans. I attend church, read the bible and pray all the time. I am joining a women's group at chruch. I'm starting Divorce Care on 9/14. I also plan to join some Meetup groups when I feel a little more emotionally stable.

I was 40 years old when we got married. I already did all the "single" things I care to do so I don't have that kind of bucket list. I am now figuring out what my new life will look like and trusting God to get me there.

I have been dong extremely well in my interactions with H. He sees me GAL and being positive. This weekend I experimented with validating and complimenting him in a very small way. No pursuing, no questioning, no R talk at all. The result, I think, was a proactive text from him commenting on something I did on Saturday and asking if I was ok.

In the last week I may have seen a little shift in him. He is showing a little concern. (not that he was an overt jerk before). Knowing my H, that could mean a couple of things. He might be turning back to me a little, or he might be getting ready to take the next step with the D or the OW and he's checking to see if I can handle it. I am trying to be prepared for either.

My obsessive thoughts are getting better and I am working really hard to detach. But since I have not completely given up on my marriage I do think about it quite a bit. That's why I'm on this board.