A post about the uncomfortable or inappropriate friend.

I have read every text, E-mail and Facebook exchange between the for the last 10 months. Yipes I've been at this 10 months. Anyway in all that there is nothing to categorically show there is anything more than close friends. But it is not right that they confide in each other ESP about us. He is supportive of her, empathetic and validating. That's my job!

I still doubt there is anything going on between them, BUT my reading between the lines is that my W likes spending time with him. He is by far her closest friend. Does she have a crush or does she just need a friend. Idk. This us not my focus or not my principal focus. It is part of the uncontrollable aspects. However coupled with how we are in our R, this cannot be dismissed.

Even if W was interested, I feel he does not want R with her. Even if both dud, I could not see it lasting. But if something does happen it will be he choice. If she chooses that, I stick with my boundary of there being no us.

I cannot stay in a R were I spy to be sure nothing is happening. I hope to get to a place soon where I can stop this. I'll outline this as part if my plan for me going forward. I will outline my main areas of focus in the next few weeks/months. I needed to get the negative shite out first. Rant over.

While waiting for my next post about my actions/goals, I welcome any feedback .


R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together