Thank you job and Gwen, your support is always appreciated and I wish that I could give you both a hug in person as thanks, but you will have to make do with a virtual one (job) (gwen)

job - thanks for your words. I don't know what to say today in reply; its that deep heavy feeling inside that threatens to bubble up into tears. I know it's ok and right for me to feel this way today, like you said I am dealing with a lot - its contradictions fighting against each other. confused

My crafting projects - well I'll give anything a go but currently its making cushion covers and I am making cards for some girlfriends, just to say thanks for being in my life. The next project is to get an old cabinet for all my craft stuff and renovate it. I have just upgraded my sewing machine (my old one was my mums which she won in 1966 !!) and a girlfriend and I want to make a pretty summer dress each and hold a garden tea party - having never made a dress before its going to be interesting what we produce lol.

Talking of dresses - my happy day dress is safely wrapped in tissue paper waiting for its day in the sun. One day ....... cool

Thanks Gwen, I cant express how much your friendship means to me.

Well days off over and the working week starts again tomorrow, back to the crazy world of health and beauty - seriously, why do we need so many different types of toothbrushes - and why is the blue one at the back better than the red one at the front .... grin