Today was an unscheduled day for me to spend times with my boys. It was very sweet of my wife to ok it since we have agreed on every other weekend sharing for now. She had previously mentioned that I should see the kids more than once a week in a week.
Well, I took my boys fishing all was good. Wife joined us at the lake and that is when I got sucked into a talk with her that I was mentally playing games with her. Says quit doing certain things (my 180's) cause they annoy her or I haven't done that for a long time.
I tried to deescalate the conversation, but she counters with you don't listen to me since I am now speaking my mind. I say to myself here we go and proceed to stop her and I walk away. We get to the cars and she says I am the reason for the stress and that why she has been going to the Doctor.
I fall back in and fail because I told her my feelings for concern for her was there and I cared about her and that I can't stop my feelings like a faucet, etc and get soppy and tell I miss our family and how can she do this without trying again.
Epic failure!
Anyway, she said get over things and get use to this lifestyle. Tell your Therapist your problems and you'll understand.
I can see that she doesn't respect me and her eyes look either angry and lost.
Going to start over at Day 1.
God's Will, will be done and Family and Peace will be restored.
