So you hit on something of a nerve for me when you say about it not being fair.
one of the biggest struggles I always had was about why did my XW make so much effort for others guys (pre our relationship) but couldn't be bothered for me, this is why her hen night had such a massive impact on me and why it hurts so much to see the effort she now puts in for OM1. It's like I just didn't hold any value for her which in turn translated into there must be something wrong with (a fairly substantial Shame trigger)
I know now that a large part of this is rooted in how I see myself and my own feelings on worthiness.
Anyway I lost my point a little but what prompted it is the 'noone wants to be with me' comment. That's not true, youre basing that on a sample of your H. It's was only a few posts ago you were talking about a guy you work with who is interested in you.
There are no shortage of people who want to be with Llama trekking, falcon flying, international crossbow champion Sotto. They just might not know it yet and you might not be ready to let them - you're too busy.
Both mid 30s, 2 young kids BD 7sep14 XW moved on long ago, now living with OM1 D paperwork in progress
