Thanks RD, we did have a nice day in the main and I'm pleased with how I managed things with my friends PMA-wise and no Q's. But internally, I've been feeling a bit rubbish since TBH. My sitch is such a low contact one, that news of H just 'rattles' me. Last night, my stomach hurt and my heart hurt, and OW still being on the scene and being introduced to SS just went round and round in my mind. And he's not even my son - but I'm still struggling with it. And I'm struggling with the fact that H is still involved with OW in some way - or at least was a couple of months ago.
And that she has two guys who want to be with her and no-one wants to be with me. It just doesn't feel fair, you know? And then I feel a bit mad at myself, because I feel I SHOULD be further along than this. And why am I giving this woman headspace?? I've been here a while now and know the stats, know the theories, but it's like part of me can't catch up. I realise that detachment is a work in progress and this just illustrates I need to keep working on things.
Anyway, I'm sure it will pass. I just need to settle myself down again and move forward. At least none of this is public - just my own thoughts. Only you guys get to know this stuff!! I'm going to cook a nice lunch for my parents today and then I'm off to aqua aerobics later. Hope you're having a good weekend
Last edited by Sotto; 08/30/1507:13 AM.
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
