Got here late... but I'm here now.

[duke]

I pretty nervous for tomorrow. W gets back with kids and I haven't seen them for 30 days. I have been switching between thinking maybe she will have a change of heart and want to put the separation on hold but then reality sets in and I realize how cold and mean she was before she left. She did a lot of nasty things such as use the kids against me to get me to a mediator quicker. I really think that things are final and there is no turning back. She will want to finalize things as fast as possible. I am sure that she has arranged for her mom to pick everyone up and she hasn't even bothered to tell me when the flight lands. I have asked several times. I had to ask D14 and she wasn't sure. I am going to the airport regardless to see my kids get off the plane. This next week is going to be very tough on me. This last 30 days was just a pause before the storm.