Where do I go from here? pt. 2

[PigPen]

I'm with you on the grocery shopping Becky, I still buy enough for two and it's been 9 months. Every week I end up throwing out food but then still buy it again.

Just keep telling yourself that this is not forever. You're not going to be single forever, alone forever, nor unhappy forever. It [censored] that this happened to us. It just plain [censored]. I would much rather have spent this year raising a child and building my business than in therapy, on the couch depressed, and hiding out from the world. But I can't change anything.

I've been reading One Year to Live and in it the author talks about the experience of death and illness and how if we view them as "ours" they are much more painful. "My cancer" as opposed to "the cancer". He said that when we realize that 250,000 people will die on the same day we do, it's not as lonely, it's not as isolating, nor then as scary.

I read somewhere that over 1 million Americans will get divorced this year. That means that roughly 500,000+ people are shopping for one that would rather be shopping for two. That's a lot of people. I'm one of them. So are all the people on this board.

I'm sorry you had to see your H at a funeral of all places, and if we lived close I'd invite you over for dinner and some exception bitching about our spouses. But I can't. So know that you're in my thoughts and we share the same pain tonight.

Big hug,

PP