Uggghhhh!!! I just wish I could just shut up. Was having a good conversation with H about really nothing and I had to bring up R. All I get from him is I don't know...I don't know. I don't know if I want to live with you again. I don't know if I can make an effort for our marriage. I want to be alone. He flip flops all over the place. In May/June during MC it was I want nothing more than to be with my wife again and now he wants nothing from me. I get so frustrated. He doesn't want to make an effort. Says he used to love me enough, but now doesn't anymore. Sometimes I just wish he would end it. Right now, the way he is (selfish) I really don't want to have him as my H. If I would have known the real him I would have never married him. Btw, he tells me that he was trying to be someone that he is not when we first met and then married and the way that he is now is the way he is, wether I like it or not. Pretty frustrated right now! Oh and right towards the end of our conversation he tells me that he woke up this morning and was going to suggest for me to come see him tomorrow and spend a couple of days. ???? WTF???
Rant over!!! *breathe*
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
