Thank you so much for your concern. I'm sorry I haven't been online this week. I've been getting my d25 ready to live overseas for a year. Lots to do to make sure she is ready for that commitment.
Wow, I've also been trying to catch up on your sitch. I can say that there are elements of your sitch in mine but not quite to that severity. I truly feel for you. I have lived through so much drama and chaos especially when my H wasn't feeling the center of attention or wasn't getting his way. Many days, months of not being talked to, made to feel like it is all your fault, etc. it hurts and I'm still not sure how to handle it. It sounds like you are doing way more searching than I am. I know that will be my next step. I've just not been able to go there yet emotionally.
As far as the "serious talk" my H finally called after a week, the night b4 our d left for Overseas. It was a very cordial talk, not serious at all, just what I was doing for our d to get her ready. Then he called the next day to make sure she got on her flight, etc.talked a bit about his job and all his traveling. To me it seemed like he is trying to sound very busy (which he is) and not bothered by anything. I guess he was acting "as if", maybe he is DBing-LOL. Not one word about our R. I let it go and decided I would not be the one to bring anything up. Consequently, we are now on our 9th month of separation.
Our S said the other day that he thinks his dad sounds very sad every time he talks to him. I think we are all sad to tell you the truth.
Thank you again for your posts, your words of wisdom, your authenticity. I know the serious talk will have to happen at some point. I've got to do the deep dive here soon to start doing additional work on myself. To try to figure out who I am and what I want. For right now, I'm living in the moment, not making any big decisions.
I will continue to read your posts and pray that you find some peace and serenity. And, contrary to what you believe, you are wise!
