Thank you for reaching out my friend. I have been thinking about you as well and wanted to reach out. I will do that on your thread.
Things are ok, for the most part my W and I get along, I have unfortunately confronted her a few times about the OM she has been texting (making mistakes, and not learning from them). I know that this coupled with speaking about the R has been detrimental to what I ultimately would want. I decided to start distancing myself, focusing on me, working on my PMA, and still GAL.
The problem that I see is that my W tries to pull me back when she sees that I am moving away, commenting on my pictures on FB, texting me random things that the kids would do or questions, telling me that my S7 asks for me, etc. Even thought we had a conversation speaking to putting a bit of distance. Confuses me to heck.
I have been listening to Joel Osteen and I am really loving his sermons. Have also started putting together an inspiration wall to help me shift my mental state. Still crying from time to time when it gets too much, always in private, never in front of W.
My IC has been on vacation when he returns I plan on shifting our sessions to begin addressing my issues and no longer the M, I know I am having problems letting go of the R, trying to remember that this M is over and what I want and hope for is a new and better M. I need to work on my own faults, understand where my fear is coming from, why do I do the things I do.
Sorry, it kinda all just poured out. I hope all is well with you my friend. God Bless you for reaching out to me. I truly appreciate it.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
