Ok... so.. I decided to take H up on offer for an overnite away. Third time hes asked so I said yes. I feel like a relationship talk might be in my future. Unsure if it will generate from me or him. More than likely me as I seem to be a little confused by his request and our recent dinners out together. Maybe now is not a good time? Maybe I should see how the overnite goes .. digest it and then solicit a conversation in a couple days?
We have had some nice evenings out together , I dont anticipate that this will be any different as I said before more concerned with the days that follow as we will continue to live apart and ill probably miss him. Maybe he will miss me too.
What I really want to know is the OW status.. as I mentioned previously he reffered to it as circling the toilet.. I dont want to be his fall back option. I want him to choose me not come back because shes no longer available. NOR do I want become part of a competition where now she and I are competing to see who can be more fun, available or whatever.. I dont want to be a jealousy pawn piece either...
Who's got some good advice for me? Negative is welcome too I am all ears.
Married 1991 D 32 GD 12 D 30 GD 3 S 29 M 58 S 57 1st bomb 2008 2nd bomb 4/2015 same person New bomb 09/24 I fear those big words which make us so unhappy.
