Thanks for the support guys. Met a new friend for dinner and couple drinks tonight, and feeling a little better now. This poor guy actually lost his own wife to suicide about 4 months ago, so he's in even worse shape than me. It helps us both to be able to talk about things. I'm really expanding my social circle and getting to the point I feel like I'm going to end up having as many or more friends as I had way back in college days, and that was a LOT. Looking back, I can see how much different I was then that what I became over the past few years, and I sort of see how my wife became disillusioned. I think I lost a lot of what initially attracted her, and not only that, but I realized that those same things made me happy too.
I don't know where it all began to change, but somewhere along the way of having kids and a full time job, we just fell into a rut. I'm trying to rediscover me, and what makes dwh happy as a person. That's going to make my kids happier, and make me a more fun and attractive person to everyone, including WW. It's still a long road ahead but I'm trying to take it one step at a time and trust those that have come before me who say it does get better.
Me 47 W 42 T 24 yrs M 18 yrs W living with OM BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1) BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out) WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015. Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.