Just chiming in to support you BT! I'm not really sure the right words to say. But I understand the pain you are experiencing. And you aren't alone.
Sometimes it's ok to be weak. To spend a day or two crying into a bowl of ice cream. Nobody is going to judge you for that. The decision you made was so tough that Id be surprised if it WERENT hitting you hard this week.
Take your time to recover. And come back stronger.
