Thanks Cali. I really hope it does get easier. Today has been a real setback in terms of emotion. I actually broke down and cried in the car a little while ago. This is the worst I've felt in a while and no idea why, unless it was that phone call yesterday. I've been out keeping busy but WW on my mind constantly. Guess I really need to avoid seeing her for a while. Felt I was doing fine with just texting every couple of days, and missed her, but not like this. Today, it's been a real struggle to not wanna call her and just ask what in the he11 is she thinking? So much pain, and for what? But I know it wouldn't do any good. Maybe make her feel guilty for a few minutes, but then reset any progress I may have made with her missing me over the past couple months. Right now, I really hate OM. I know he only owns half the blame for this, but I also know he is using WW as a crutch for his own emotional needs, and is going to eventually dump her when he's done. I just wish he would get it over with and give her a chance to bottom out and maybe start to heal.
I feel for you dwh. It's so easy to fixate on OM. "If he weren't here, then I'd still be happily married!" But it isn't that simple. You know that. If it weren't him today, it would be someone else next week. I'm in the same funk today...trying not to focus on W/OM. It's hard not to. But he's the symptom....not the problem.
