You are all welcome, and I'm glad you are finding what I post helpful. I hope she doesn't fully understand herself, but I suspect a lot is that she is not willing to open herself up to me and go into depth either because it is too painful, she doesn't want to hurt me, or she just doesn't see the point.

And I do struggle a lot at times, and my mood fluctuates. For instance, the last couple days, I've just been wrestling with why she won't really explain herself and why she really thinks divorce is the answer. There is still a big sore spot in me from that, even if I wouldn't like the answer, it is hard for that sore spot to heal when you keep poking it by wondering.

About to have my DB coach call. I'll post later about that.

Me: 50 W:43
S6, S3
M: 12 yrs. T: 17
M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14
S 5 Feb '15
D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry")
DB Coach May '15
Wants proceed on D Aug '15
Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15